this is love =D

dar bought me to science centre!!! yay!! finally after all that "trying to talk him into it", and then that day on our anni we're suppose to go but we overslept, and had to change plans and all..

so on our first anni, we wanted to go, in the end we decided we want to go ice skating, and then cannot again cos the ice rink is being booked 30 mins after our arrival, then we went to eat at where we ate on first date. then we went walk around orchard, then we decided to eat fruit tart from fruit paradise, but cannot AGAIN cos they say they close already. just past 9? hmmmm quite sian la huh.. after that we went... partyworld! =P

well, not exactly party.. truth is i screwed the day up la.. =P hahahahahaha..

but it was really fun after we became a lil happier =D

that silly boy, we sang all the random songs and we become very very happy =D

=D so fast one year already =) and i'm loving you more each day boy =* capybara kiss for you!! thanks for everything so far! =D

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ANYWAY, i was saying. we went to science centre!!!! which i've been secretly wanting to go but dar feels its stupid (dun say never, you said its stupid!!) hahahahaha..

it was fun!!

there's like so many random stuffs there to see.. haha if only we went earlier, no need so rush. the trip was a surprise anyway so didnt plan for it.

next: Body World =D

hehehehehehehe think they did that exhibit before, didnt get to go. wanna go this time leh.. haha.. see when got occasion can bluff dar into going, doing STUPID things with me =D

You don't mind.. RIGHT! =D

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i've been playing FF3 on DS emulator. been a while since i last played RPG. forgot how fun it was funny around chasing after crystals =D

maybe after this i will start on FF7, or FF tactics, since so highly recommanded from the great Aaron-darling Lim =D

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mannnnnn i miss albert's classsssss even tho i screwed up his exam.... =P

no i don't miss ballet. not one bit.

rahhhhhhhh... i wanna go swimming..

puii- love ikea hotdogs =D

HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY DEAREST DARLING SWEET BABY LOVE BOY! =D

i love you boyfee =*
i love you so so so so so so much.
so happy to be with you! =D replace "happy" with every other positive thing on earth too =D
can't tell you enough of iloveyou's everydayyyyyyy =D i love you.

piglet-mantou loves cookie-san =D

now i gotta sleep, so we can go out and celebrate tomorrow =) SO HAPPY!

in fact, i've been so so happy these few days. dar's been so sweet. heh.. he's the cutest thing ever. and i'm glad we always end up happy no matter what happens.

Thankyousweetie!iloveloveloveyou!youlooksodamncutewhenyousleephahahahahaimveryhungrynow.

Happy first year love!

aarmian-puiron - ♥

wrap me up in cotton wool..

YAY holidayyyyyy =P

but i dunno what to do =P

hai sian. no time complain no time. tired complain tired..

now got time can slack also complain. i dunno what i want la.

but i'm glad for the short break from dance. i think i really grew quite tired of it during the semester.

and yay.. lucky womanhood skipped everything important just by a bit and hit me now when i'm free with nothing to do. haha..

wrap me up in cotton wool..

i wan a holiday job. but one month is too short for people to hire me. damnnnn =P

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i don't know what i want.

sometimes i forget...

everyday i forget...

maybe thats why i really hate myself sometimes.

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Was it somethin' I said or somethin' I did?
Did my words not come out right?
Though I tried not to hurt you
Though I tried...

but I guess that's why, they say

Every rose has its thorn
Just like every night has its dawn
Just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song
Every rose has its, yeah, it does

Though it's been a while now
I can still feel so much pain
Like the knife that cuts you, the wound heals
But the scar, that scar remains

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i love going out with dar. hopefully he'll be free soon and we can go out again..

next tuesday!!!!!!!! =D 5 more 5 more days =D

can't wait =)))))))))))))))))))))

hee i love the song we sang yesterday =D SECRET!
i'mluckytohaveyoubaby =D
lego lego lego!! =D

wrap you up in cotton wool..

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im boredddd

puii- i dun want it anymore.

it just sucks to be feeling so damn sick on both exam days. i can't even breath the whole time. okay maybe i can, but i can't think. haha i think the mucus is congesting my brain too. ballet left me so giddy the whole time, and contemp just sucks, cos i can't remember anything.

i'm sick and i don't want that. not now not now not now... =(

sore throat and flu.. and shivers.. go awayawayaway! =( feel damn sucky to be sick now la, and worse part is when i tried to recall exercises, i got mental block. damn i'm really starting to panick now..

ballet that makes me feel ugly, rahhhhhhh... =(

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on a happier note, so sweet of dar to finally bring me to that "too cool for zoo" trip we've been talking about and postponing. =D so fun so fun!! took quite a bit of pictures, but not as much as i'd usually take la.. dunno why. maybe cos not feeling that well. missed alot of monkeys and stuff. we skipped the whole elephant and reptile section. but its kay, those are boring =P

the new kids section so cute! got WABBIT =D so damn fat la. hehehehehe.. the KFC there damn power la. makes me feel like eating Dallas now, but got sore throat =((( damnnnnnn..

oh ya, got this damn weird exhibit there, this old kampong house i think.. then got very realistic wax people, then got GIANT size pest and insects all around.. just weird la the whole place, and its at the kids section, dunno what kind of awareness they want to bring. hahahahahaha..

love walking around the whole place with baby =) he so stupid, scare me at the baboon area, then complain why i kick him. hahahahaha.. so fun going excusion with him =D hahahahaha.. more more moreee!! =D

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YAY more lego to play =D

puii- i hungry daaaaaaa.......

Horror shows are the dumbest thing ever.

and i hate it i had to watch, cos its playing in my face.

and then when i am watching, it gets switched off without asking me..

puii- stupid stupid stupid...

Here's my love
Step inside
Let me warm you up
By the fire in my heart

Step inside
Close the door
On the wind of fear
Brewing up behind you

You could stay here
Make your home here
Hideaway here

I could wrap you up in cotton wool
Here's somewhere you could let your love
Run free come and give your soul a resting place
Finding someome is like finding yourself a home
If the key fits - just open the door

'Cause you're never gonna spend a lonely day here
Come and watch your fear fly away
And you'll never hunger for a greener side than here

Gonna wrap you up in cotton wool and save you
And s a v e you
(And save you)

Where's your love
Let me in
To find the warm fire
That I know is there inside you
Let me in - it's cold outside
And I'll grow there
Find that place deep down inside you

You could hold me
And protect me from all harm
You could love me
You could wrap me up

And I could stay there
Make my home there
Hideaway there
You could wrap me up
In cotton wool

puii- ♥

perf at the apec dinner was good i think. tho the stage look so cute. hahahaha.. 've been damn long since i last danced on a stage like this. diff is there's dance mats laid.. haha normally this kind of setting won't so nice to us one.. =P

its suppose to be important, i know. but i really don't even know who we dancing to. haha but doesnt matter la =P hopefully it was good la.. =D

i saw the rest of them while standing there and looking at them (what i'm supposed to be doing at that time), each of them got this thick eyeliner, and shimmers in their eyes from the lighting. look damn fierce sia =D i love how we exited. like those tribe lidat. haha so cool =D

so the only part that sucked was dinner. hahaha.. actually mine's not so bad.. so heh~ i keep quiet =D

and that place is so PWETTYYYYY.... Capella Sentosa. i don't even know what it is but its just pretty la =P hahahaha..

Anyways. it was fun, except that fall i had that left me a pink knee.. yay~ love "field trips" hahahahahha.. June!! Sentosa escape just finished like that!! We must go zoo some day!! =D

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and i'm here at this kinda time cos i'm stress.

thesis submission is tmr (today, later, technically..), and ya, still rushing. actually i slept first so i have more time and energy to do. haha lucky never sleep overshoot =P

kay la i shall go back to thesis now, wish me luck! and every other thing i need to do a good-enough proposal. heh~~

and OH EXAM. *cue music for disaster* =P

puii- sorrydariloveyou=* capybara KISS!

ILLTREATED. then blamed and questioned.

how many times again? again?

well, not like i never say in the first place... ...

and i really thought... ... ... .....never mind..

puii- stop pushing.

I AM SO HUNGRY

its 10.45 and the last meal i ate was lunch. at 3 plus. haha i'm so hungry now i could eat a capybara =P

noooo i'm kidding i won't ever eat a capybara because its so damn cute =D


the real thing
































the plush version


its so damn cute =) i just saw a video of one of these animals being raised as pet and is fed ice cream! so cute when it chewed off chucks of ice cream!!! =)

but i'm REALLY hungry.

maybe i'm dying. i hope womanhood hits me soon, before exams come. and perf of cos. either that or let it come after everything is over. i got tons of time to cramp during the holidays. it would suck big time if i had to do ballet exam with cramp and, ya period.

i need hugs nowww =P

yay to tmr!!! xjh xjh xjh!!! flower dress flower dress!!!

oh ya, THANKS BABY for the lovely flower dress you bot =D so cute! but i really got no shoes to wear with it. daaaaaaaaaa... wear my half sneakers =P

can what.... =P hahahahaa..

i need new ballet shoes! =P

kay la. think i can eat soon =) (been waiting for dar to eat together) yayyy! i love eating with baby, he's always fun to eat with (of cos, besides when we're not very happy) first date we had was go out and eat!! =) Arnold's! Haha that's like only a year ago =D so sweet la that time =)))))))))

i miss binge eating with boyfee =) but we are not free to do that anymore! damnnnn..

haha one less chance for me to be fatter over the holidays then.

i need a holiday job =P hahahaha..

i mean it.

puii- loveyoumuchaarmianbara =)

my baby is so cuteee!!

[This is it] is niceee~

i want a new phone laaaaaa =P

puii- funny animals =P

locked in!!!! >=(

Ha, you prolly read every other blog entries about the dans fest. =P yaaahhhh i'm slowww =P

hahahahaha..

anyways, its over and i'm glad. its fun i agree, but i'm too tired for anymore of it. its just so different this year, it felt more like a mental push for us (for me) for every show. no usual excitement, you know, the kind where you feel jittery and look forward, and you can't wait to go out there to dance?

hahahahaha nooooo performance time just gets nearer while we sit around and try not to be so tired. at least for me. my back was in a big bad pain =( it still is hurting noww.. and i'm tired, and i didn't eat like i should. two days of performance i think i ate lesser than i would in a normal day's meal.

stress maybe, i blame everything to stress nowadays. i can blame it till the holidays at least =)


so performance wasn't so fun this time. not as much laughter and stupid photos that we have with past seniors. but it was fun too, just...ahhh tired. damn tireddd.

but prolly this was the most satisfying show i've done. got to dance more, and mummy aunt and baby came to watch =)

and this random indian lady came to me and june, say we dance very nice =D

and then there's that email from some random guy to dance fac saying we did well.

its all satisfying, to know we're not delusional about our dancing. hahahahaha..

so proud of the level 1s. =) really am. you guys are great and courageous to pull through even though yall are not feeling at your very best. we love you all, must remember that!

love level 2s too~ =) love the omar's trio. you three really look damn good dancing together =)

classmates! =) glad we survived fine, and yay! there goes our last esplanade show with lasalle! =P hahahahahaha..

glad its over. now there's thesis and exams. hahahaha..

gosh ballet nooooooo............

THANK YOU IVONN for the elmo puppet!!! =) i brought it out to east coast the other day with me when i went cycling with aaron =) HEE! (this is what i wrote on your facebook, but you removed)

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ballet always makes me feel ugly. haha maybe thats why i'm so scared of it. and i really can't turn for nuts, damn not even a nice single pirouette thats not accidental. hahahahaha..

when accidents happen, they are beautiful =)

and accidents happened today, ala seconde and arabesque, once each. hee so shiok. but ahhhhh i dun have the luxury to feel it everytime. sian.. =P

muscles muscles come to me.. all the back and core muscles, oh come to meeeee~~

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i wan bkt bkt bkt bkt bktttt =D

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Here's a story of lovers' finding
Union so deep there is no unwinding
Tender threads exquisitely finding
Two lives together one soul deep resounding

Love so strong whatever the weather
Even apart our souls are together
Its you and me, babe, forever and ever
Even apart we're dreaming together

Suddenly all time and space
Loses its meaning when I see your face
And I'm wrapped up in heaven's grace
Feeling so safe in your sweet embrace

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should i go for massage some time soon one week before exam? should i should i? tell me tell me kay =P i dunno lei my scapula there really damn pain.. dun feel like muscle pain lei.. dunno what is it also.. sian..

ma guang tcm =P hahaha..

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i had the hugest urge to drink kickapoo during albert's class today. hahahaha..

albert's class has been like a brain smashing session, trying to remember all the damn old exercises that we haven't done since two years ago =P damn tough ahhhh dunno how he remembers it all. hahahahaha..

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i'm like just typing random. whatever's coming to mind. hahahaha..

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i love my boyfeeee =*


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when holidays come i'll be very happy. i dun feel like dancing ahhhhhhh =P hahahahahaha..

actually i do la. just not ballet. gaaaaahhhh ballet exam exercises are driving me crazy. hahaha i cannot do those weird leg crossing thing la =P i think my legs are retarded.

hopefully i do okay enough to pass =D heeee..

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i need new bottoms for going out =D

i need new ballet shoes

i love my new specs, thanks to babyyyyyy =*

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so stupid i forgot to bring camera out today.. cannot load photos to facebook =P

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mos milk tea *drool*

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okay i had enough of random blogging =) next timeeeeee then~

puii-

yesterday's lunch was a romantic escape with june baby to bugis! =D it was so damn shiok la.. going to bugis and eat mos burger for lunch, still can do speed shopping and then run back to school in the rain! =) so damn romantic. hahahahahahahaha.. we were like idiots. =P laughing to ourselves while running. hahaha..

at least, she ran and i walked very fast. haha. i'm just unhealthy, not like june.

well, objective was to look for costume for hsien fa's piece. cotton on so so should just sponser lasalle dancers cos we are basically wearing their stuffs almost everyday, for class, after, and for costumes. hahahahahaha... sports people get adidas and nike, we get cotton on =)

randomly bought "couple shirt" with june too. hahahahah.. so random =P

YAY ye pi leh can come for esplanade showwww!! =D

haha she heng she cannot join us for dinner after that. me and june will drag her to yoshinoya =D

school is so damn tired. i entered another zone of emoness already. i really don't feel like dancing anymore, i feel so damn tired, even tho i've been so damn slack. i really dunno how people like june and lulu does it. i really dunno how to push myself so hard like them.

they can still dance so much with their injury and tired body. i only whine.

haha i suck.

i have my own pain in all the various joints, but thats prolly nothing compared to theirs. and i'm the one whining. hahahahaha very sensible.

yesterday in albert's class we really just zombied out the whole lesson. even learning new exercises also with blank faces. i can't even focus on what i was doing, or where i was, or where other people were and stuff. hahahahha we prolly will kill each other if there were more people..

but albert's exercises are just so niceeeee =P

but i really don't feel like dancing anymore. for like a day or two la at least. but that gotta wait till weekend. damnnnn.. =(

esplanade show next week. still worried about IF. or rather, IF after tuesday's child and loretta's piece. dunno will die anot. and the quick changes, and the hair.. hahaha jia lat la dunno can fast enough do so many things not. try so many times full run still not very sure. hai.. scared sia..

but for now, the five minutes seem like a long enough break to rest, not sure about transition. hahaha.. hopefully can la huh..

i need bottles on both sides of the door, and quick change masters to help me =D

especially from tuesday's child to loretta's. last to exit, first to come on with An. hahaha how to change in time! =P

am excited about dance fest tho. looking forward to go back to that greenroom look alike studio and take nice nice pictures there =D

thing is, we dunno who we're dancing for. hahahahahahahaha.. its gonna be an unknown audience, and that suck.

june dance so nice! i really feel very touched watching her solo =D got goosebumps one. damn nice =D

i want to drink milo.

i'm so tired and i miss dar. everytime i feel tired i miss him. he will help me massage my shoulders and let me hold him. he will try to make me laugh when i'm sad, and do the enthu bassist face =P he will be there to tell me capybara san is there dancing beside me too when i want to give up =D thats so damn sweet la =D heehee~

i love my baby, so much =D

so sweet of him! he bought me lego the other day!! sweet surprise! =) we had damn alot of fun building it together and playing it. hahahahahaha so fun so fun! never had so much fun in a long time. so cute of him la.. =) aiyo i miss him so much already, that cute face =D

mr big! mr big! mr big! =) the concert was so damn nice, tho dar don't believe i had a great time. hahahahahaha.. took alot of pics and vids tho i thought not suppose to. but the concert was a blast =) all my homework paid off listening to all those mr big songs! some i'm not that familiar with but the band is awesome =D

dar, i really had a great time! =D

singapore fans cheer like this: mr big.. mr big.. mr big.. we want more.. we want more..

hahahahahahahaha...

puii- capybara kiss =*

You're the bravest of hearts, you're the strongest of souls
You're my light in the dark, you're the place I call home
You can say it's all right, but I know that you're breaking up inside
I see it in your eyes

Even you face the night afraid and alone
That's why I'll be there

When the storm rises up, when the shadows descend
Ev'ry beat of my heart, ev'ry day without end
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes
If that's what it takes

You can sleep in my arms, you don't have to explain
When your heart's crying out, baby, whisper my name
'Cause I've reached out for you when the thunder is crashing up above
You've given me your love

When your smile like the sun that shines through the pain
That's why I'll be there

When the storm rises up, when the shadows descend
Ev'ry beat of my heart, ev'ry day without end
I will stand like a rock, I will bend till I break
Till there's no more to give, if that's what it takes

I will risk everything, I will fight, I will bleed
I will lay down my life, if that's what you need
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes

Through the wind and the rain, through the smoke and the fire
When the fear rises up, when the wave's ever higher
I will lay down my heart, my body, my soul
I will hold on all night and never let go
Ev'ry second I live, that's the promise I make
Baby, that's what I'll give, if that's what it takes

If that's what it takes
Every day
If that's what it takes
Every day

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Really too tired to wake up for dance today. woke up middle of the last night and felt my muscles all shivering. hahaha my muscles are like, spelling fatigue to me.

loaf bread loaf bread loaf bread from four seasons =)))

dar forced me to go for the lecture after class, last class for the week since we half day today =)

dar is so sweet =) tho i so wished he kidnaped me somehow to somewhere else, but i'm glad he sent me straight to school and ignored me =P hahaha..

hope the wound won't leave a scar =( its real bad, and damn red right now.. feels swollen. dar say might be infected. damn he sure know how to scare me. hahahaha..

excited to face coming weekend =) i wanna have a good time before i go back to school and dance again with my tired muscles. hahahahahaha.. weekend weekend weekend!!! =)

maybe i really should choreograph something for thesis. well, have that tiny bit only.. hahahaha gotta expand on it soon la if not i'll never do anything abourit. hahaha.. kinda stressed about thesis now that semester is ending. hope i won't be tripping over my own leg by the end of it. =)

dans fest dans fest dans fest soon!! =) buy tickets buy tickets!! =P

dar is so cute =) and i look ugly. damn. =P

i got craving for roast duckkkk =)

puii- pour que tu m'aimes encore

when a nasty rope grabs on to your leg, you just feel like pulling it and snapping it in two, get rid of it, cut it or burn it or something like that.
and i was stupid enough to not cut it away so long ago..
when a nasty rope refuse to go away.. its the worst thing.
now the rope's done more damage than it should, to me and itself.
the rope was stupid for thinking that by not letting go maybe it will get something in the end, or keep something.. i think the rope think it could.. keep something it was holding so hard to.
i really shouldn't, but i hated the rope for not letting go of what is mine.
a rope has two sides, and the rope had things on both ends.. something old, and something new. and it made such a weird choice which to let go and which not to.
mine.
the worst choice ever.
mine, since so long ago..
and its dumb.
i thought i didn't want to spoil the rope so much.. i didn't want to snatch from the rope.
now the rope don't have anything. and left me blistered ankles, but that'll heal, and i'm good again. and i have what is mine.
i thought i was nice to the rope, but the rope didn't budge.
sometimes.. i don't know what ropes think. then again, they don't have a brain so there goes the thinking.
and when i became a little angry, the rope thinks i'm evil.
rope don't know when it's best to let go. maybe the rope think blisters will drive me away, then it can keep what is now mine.
rope don't remember i was nice at the start, until rope start giving me blisters.
but it couldn't. and i didn't go away. i kept what is mine safe in my hands and embrace so rope won't hurt it.
at the very end i decided to be nice to the rope again and let it just go away. i wanted to give it some blisters too but... if it comes back, i will be very very bad.
rope is gone, its departure so long overdued. well, it knows where it should go...
mind you, the rope was hurting me first. you just don't know it...
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wahhhh school is soooooo tiring really. and its only thursday. i swear i cannot move a muscle anymore in the dance kinda way. its not even aching its just numb and tired. hahahaha.. tuesday only and i felt the week is long. and damn it was so long really!!

lucky for half day in school tomorrow, thanks to deepavali =)

the scratch on my face is looking bad =( i dont want to look like pirate! =P

puii- too tired to dance already lahhhhhhhhh =P hahaha..

i'm feeling so so so tired nowww.. really damn tired. i can't feel my legs today, the whole time... so, make jumps feel like nightmare. the shock i get from all the landing that hits my lower back is so scary.

sorrydarforeverythingidothatmakesyousad
cannotpromiseitwonthappenagain
butpromiseeverytimeyouresadilltryeverythingtomakeyoufeelhappier

yes, capybara kisses =)

andyesyesyesiloveyoubabymissyousomuchnow

knee that kid knee that kid! =)))

cantwaittoseeyoulatercutiesweetiepie =)

puii- i wanna drink many many milo again =P

unspoken.

and yes the green eye monster never really disappears in the story. forever haunting, lurking, waiting to pull your leg and make you fall just when you are not looking. monster is jealous of all of life's goodness; not that monster can't get their own, monster just want yours, or monster'll take yours from you if monster can't have it, by whatever means.

the green eye monster will never realise that monster are not the ones with the happy ending, but the princes and princesses. until the day monster can turn into one, monster will forever remain a sad sad monster.

monsters don't think. monster don't realise who really did mistakes. so monster harm good people and make them sad. monster capture the princess in a cell where she can't escape. monster keep her there.

at times, the princess might sleep, and dream about freedom. about her life with the prince, singing in the woods, counting the flowers, and the birds and squirrel friends. she thought it was all real. but the monster had to wake her up, and show her monster's big green eyes.

in the green eyes, the princess saw herself. and feels sad. and on the monster's face is stolen happiness, stolen, stolen.

and the prince is at fault for all these, because he didn't appear till this last minute. ain't these stories always like that. only when the princess is in distress will he appear to save her.

but when he did, its always magical.

as the cell breaks, love and forgiveness grows, exponentially. you thought there could never be any more love than this. and this is where happily ever after comes, because the prince and princess will never want to lose each other again...

and what is left of the green eye monster? hurt and cut by the prince's mighty sword, his determination to protect his princess, and his love that sent him here in search of her.. the monster remains sad; even sadder.

what's the point for the monster? no point at all.. if the monster had spend more time doing something that will turn it into a prince or princess, then monster might see a happily ever after.

but no stories go that way... and there shouldn't have been monster in the first place...



The venom clamours of a jealous woman poison more deadly than a mad dog's tooth.
--William Shakespeare


and besides, nobody likes the monster in the story. well, except of course, monster friend.


and now its happily ever after for the prince and princess. and the childrens cheer.


i like happy ending despite how mean the story could get. it always ends like this, so it feels safe for me =)


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i'm a lousy story teller. i probably lost you by the second line.. never mind that.. hahaha..

i dunno why my muscles are still aching so bad. well not like aching damn bad, but its like the muscles are never really recoving. hahaha that's damn sad.. i walk only my shin there the muscle also pain. hahahaha sian..

and dammit.. its monday tmr alreadyyyyy =( days never pass by as fast as weekends. hahahahaha..

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boyfee, i love ya to bits. =) many many capybara kisses for you =* =* =*

thank you for everything =) you're the sweetest thing on earth!! and the cutest =D

puii- and don't forget: the happiest life sentence =D


If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, soon the whole world will be blind and toothless. - - Mahatma Gandhi

Heh~ i had the happiest and sweetest birthday yesterday =) happy 20 to me then~ hahahaha dun even feel entering the 20's club thing cos i've always felt old. haha hf was so shocked when he heard i'm 20... only 20.. he thought i'm like 28 or something. hahahahaha..

i was bored so i changed my blogskin again.

well, i just find this ultra cute =D hehehehe..

and anyways, i load all my photos up already, yes including all the convocation and stuff. hahahahaha sorry it took me so long la huh.. hmm now i shall leave the tagging to professional taggers like An and all =)) hahaha..

okay maybe i'll just tag it.. a while later la i'm tired now.

stupid diarrhea + headache is ruining my life la. i really feel like dying now. i constantly need rest, and that's bad =( i didnt even eat anything wrong.. i thinkkkk.. haha i guess the headache was enough to kill me, but there had to be up and down release(if you know what i mean).

damn.. my low treshold for pain. hahaha..

i just spoiled my necklace, second time wearing. haha so lousy =P

okay, i just realise i'm blogging nonsense again. shall go back to youtube and continue watching ellen's sitcom =)

puii- what do we eat later? ...what can i eat later? =P

I wish a falling star could fall forever
And sparkle through the clouds and stormy weather
And in the darkness of the night
The star would shine a glimmering light
And hover above our love

Please hold me close and whisper that you love me
And promise that your dreams are only of me
When you are near, everything's clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we follow the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can't fall forever
But let's never stop falling in love

When you are near, everything's clear
Earth is a beautiful heaven
Always I hope that we shine like the star
And be forever floating above

I know a falling star can't fall forever
And let's never stop falling in love
No let's never stop falling in love

*

iloveyoudar. happy rather belated 10 months =) sorry i always pek chek you. i love you one okayyy! =) songforyouaarmianiloveyou=)

puii- <3

its zhong qiu, and i'm doomed to be bed ridden for the rest of the day. damn that sucks =(

puii- all viruses should die =)

i had a headache that made me cry =( and i'm still having it now.. maybe half of it =( and now i feel so damn cold =( and my nose is like a tap =(

damnnnnnnn...pain.

actifast didnt work as fast as it should.

ahhhhhhhhhhhh its coming back the headache.. got a feeling its gonna be like this for the whole dayyyy..

someone kill me please =P

sorry dar =P

few more days to happiest day in the year! =P hahahaha..

puii- feel like dying =(

fallen dreams are the hardest to keep. they drag you down, keeping you its prisoner. but its also hardest to let go; a part of you will never stop believing that maybe one day it will come true, in the most magnificient fashion, that maybe one day you can become a star...

then i say, we shouldn't give up at all. if we can find strength and courage to drag this heavy dream a little further, maybe that is where it will blossom.. don't know about you but, maybe i'll just keep dancing a little everyday.. in my heart, i still have a tiny dream.. well, not like its fallen or i'd given up or what.. just seeing people slowly give up on what they started due to circumstances is just hard to swallow.. hard to watch..

i'm afraid i'll become like that..

i don't want to lose my joy in dancing. i know its what i love, and i will try my best to love it the way i should =)

yes, even ballet and pointe with weights. hahahahahahaha... i will TRY =P

*

i can't stop munching apollo biscuits =P
and my red bean bread
and drinking root beer

*

sims3 is fun. i made my guy have an affair with a rich woman, making her pregnant, and then making her marry me, and chased the ex husband out of the big big house to live in the one i previously had, the tiny little hut house.

and the baby is kinda easy to take care. still need to teach to talk and walk and go potty. hahahaha damn funny game.

and the woman is pregnant again =P

haha sims 3 is fun la. its so ridiculously dramatic.

*

puii- i can't wait to see baby again =P

haha well, in the end i didnt do anything i'm suppose to do. and its time to go.

byebye! =)

puii-

my handphone battery got run over by cars yesterday. the battery cover too. hahaha so sian.. how can lidat..

hopefully it wont explode, and a new phone will come soon. hahahahahahahahaha..

was walking across to street to go over to peace centre area.. i already walk quite a bit away from the main road already know.. already reached like sultan kebab there already, then got these two indian girls tap my shoulders and say i dropped my handphone batt behind. i was like "oh, where??" and looked back. didnt see anything. i thought they would at least tell me where or what but they just walked off..

in the end i walk back to find, it was in the middle of a busy road. hahaha so sad, could only stand there and watch my battery and cover kena run over by cars. had to pick it up only at green man. the batt and cover was like polkadotted from tiny pebbles on the road.

how come those two girls cannot pick up first then come find the owner of those thinggggsssss..

hai sad. its kay la. its still functioning now la huh so.. haha i'm not dead from explosion yet.

always feel damn sleepy nowadays between 5 to 8. really dead tired sleepy kind.

dallas is shiokness =)

wah today today... ballet was so crazy.. hf made us buy wrist weights, 0.5 kg each side. and made us wear it on the ankles for whole of barre and half of centre exercises. wah i tell you it was so crazy. i really cannot feel my toes at all, we all couldn't. hahahha.. it was damn painful la. my whole feel was cramping up from all the releves already, still must push off from the floor when we do petite allegros.

i thought i was going to die.

i think this will either make or break us. lets hope we survive =) hehehehehehe..

no matter how much i dance i'll still feel like a nua sai. hahaha that feeling sucks sia. dumbdumb is still calling me a dua bui. and laughed at my big thighs and cellulites =(

i'm fat
i'm fat
i'm fat

hahahahahahaha.. nahh it'll never get into my head. it'll only disturb me during ballet class. after that, lunch and food chases all of it away =) i think i'll never be skinny enough for ballet, or become anorexic. hahaahahaha i call it a blessing =) =) =)

i'm not THAT fat what... hahaha...

wa damn sleepy ah.....................zzzzzzzzzz...........

watch jiu watch la.. still must write... =(
hahahahhahaha...

ahhhh better start writing something today. if not i'll never write anything..

haha june is so cute.

i wanna kope that psp game from zuyou..
..and that video of omar's trio from An.

but i lazy bring laptop =P hahahahahaha..

daaaaaa i wish there were more things that can let me procrastinate a lil longer.

hee kay bye.

puii- i wanna buy your cables.. 6 bucks.. hahahahahahaha...

got new skirt. got new skirt. got new skirt.

thankyousweetheart =) i love it very much <3 and you too! =P

and i done something to my hair, hahahahah..

and contact lenses..

and on the not so bright side, got the wrist weights too..

and today was so nice of an escape =) love spending time walking around with you.. <3

well i should be sleeping..

dar look so cuteeeeee..

i feel like chewing on vitamin C pills.

rootbeer taste damn good with chocolate ice cream. REALLY.

i miss arnolds.

need new hairband. need toepad from stage image. need new alarm clock for dar.

kay la. i need to sleep now. =P last ballet class with paul tmr~

puii- aarmianiloveyou<3

got new shoes. got new shoes. got new shoes.

and i'm loving it. and i love dar cos he got them for me. and thank you sweetheart =) we got "couple shoes" now. hahahahahaha..

weekends wasnt so much of an escape as i had hoped it would be. hopefully tmr will be better, and i'll get to go out with dar to spend some time together =)

sims 3 is fun!

i need new contact lens.

i like dar's new chains =)

sudhee got no wisdom, but she got a heart cos she love me. hahahahahaha..

ebird's blog is becoming increasingly emo. i feel like kicking her in the head. hahahahahaha..

june is so cute. i cant imagine school without her.

ivonn ah... i miss you la kay.

haha well, random attempt to hide the fact that all my posts are mostly about "dar" hahahahaha..

i wanna do something to my hair.

kay la gotta go sleep already. wanna blog random somemore one. haiya tmr la.

i love you dar =*

puii- tears of relief leaves a sweet-bitter-sweet aftertaste

i reallyyyy felt like dying in ballet today. hahhahaha that short pointe thing was killer enough.

Pain ahhhhhhhhhhh...

my shoulder felt like two chucks of wood this morning when i woke up. it still does. tiger balm muscle rub havent done its job.

hope it gets better..

maybe i should go maguang now.

i lazy walk overrrrr..

i'm bored. i'm just typing nonsense. hahahahaha..

pain.... ahhhhh....

feeling damn tired from school. hope it wont end up like what hf say la huh. what 3 months of school: first month, trying to get back what we lost, muscles and stamina all. second month, body getting very tired. muscles dying. third month, injuries, sit out of class. hahahahahahaha..

that'd be bad.

g force is so cute!

i wanna watch time traveller's wife and year one. and well, maybe bruno =P

my neck's aching too.

i dun feel like eating today. weird thing huh? hahahahaha..

kay la i shall be less boring and go do something else. hee~

you are my sunshine
my only sunshine

you never know dear
how much i love you

puii- you make me happy when skies are grey =)

Ahhhhh i feel like eating that mee soto stall's fried chicken NOW =P the dry kind the dry kind..

my whole leg is itching but i dunno where to scratch.

i'm watching spirited away. so cuteeee..

i'm hungryy. i feel like eating fried chicken. =P hahaha..

smashed chicken. haha..

i feel like eating nasi lemak with nice fried chicken.

i dun understand the sudden chicken craze.

kay la dinner soon =)))))

puii- dar is so cute! hahahahaha..

Wanted to type this into the new tagboard but can't dunno why.. but i'm done figuring for the day so if it still doesnt work tmr i'll do something about it.

puii-: Had to put up a tagboard again ALL because of Elizabeth Chan Mei Qi. She better use it more or else i will kick her when she comes back =)

Hahahahah so this is to that ebird in hong kong now. Hahahaha..

Feeling damn depressed today.. i think maybe i'm slowly becoming a very depressed person. i dont feel like smiling today and i'm letting my milo turn bland from all the melting ice. i think i should be happier.

oh ya.. and chocolate didnt make me happier either. cadbury marble chocolate block =P But i only at one row!! =)

well, i did became a bit happier than just now.. did a little small shopping trip just now around chinatown, and bought the most impossible of things. worse part is, none for myself. but it did make me feel alot better. finally found that little thingy for my dad, been looking for it for so longgggg.. hope he like it la.. dunno how buying little nothing helps. think its not the buying la.. its the searching, the choosing, the thinking, the hoping, and the getting of the thing that really made me a lil happier.

Tho i get dead tired from school, sometimes i feel i have a little too much free time. maybe if i throw all these times into thesis, i'd be done by now. hahahahahahhaahha..

exaggerating..

ahhhhhh the laptop's batt is dying. hope it'll last me awhile more.. hahahaahaha..

i feel like lying in a field of grass right now. just grass, and breeze and sunlight and silence. really miss that peaceful feeling.. where one can just lie there and daze the minutes away.. life became schedules, what time to do what, i feel its all too well planned. perhaps everyday i'm just hoping for some accidents and surprises that will never come..

maybe thats what stole my happiness, little by little..

i feel like sitting by the beach in darkness, staring at tiny spots of light on the waters, which reflects thin lines of shimmer towards me across the sea.

i feel like spending time with some animals. dog or cat or rabbit or chicken..

i think i'm just missing random pieces of my life...
...i feel like sitting in that tiny studio with dar again while he worked on his project =) or sitting beside him while he did my music for me one year back.

so funny, how we only met for one year and ten days..

hai kay la.. batt really dying.. rant again next time. =P

puii- ice melting.. macdonald's milo =P

How come blogger still look so weirdddd..

Haha i miss having Ivonn in school la. she's the idiot that will make everybody laugh. hahahahahaha Ivonn, you did a good deed today. You made me and june very happy. Hahahaha..

I miss ebird too.. i feel like flying to Hong Kong to kick her, at the same time can grab my roast duck and curry lamb brisket. Hahahahahah wah i hungry again.

Wahhhhh very tired ahhhh.. i always feel like dying near the end of the week. i feel like sleeping nowwww. body damn tired la. hahaha i forgot to ask someone help me step on my back just now. my lower back really damnnn pain in albert's lab just now. dun eve know where its from. hahaha damn sian..

darrrrr i want massage....

...and you look damn shuai with your geetar =))

... andiloveyou..

one more day and the week is over! =)

puii- why must i spend money on things that i dont even want? (applies for EVERYTHING) =)

Blogger look damn weird now. Dunno why the usual page didnt load, and this damn ugly page came out but i still could type stuffs so i figured it'll be posted.

Its already week 4 into school term now. still feeling damn fat. hahahahah not slimming down not slimming down..feeling very tired ahhh my body feels like its falling apart by the days. dunno izzit not enough rest or just dance till too tired..

hahhahaha not so kua zhang la just tired. but its already so much better than week 1 or 2.. hahahaha..

i cant imagine when we start writing and choreographing for thesis.

i think we will all miss ebird. i feel like pinching her face and kicking her now.

puii- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Heh maybe i should finally blog about first week of school!

i dont know how to tell you this, that i'll never ever be that angry with you, enough to go away. but doesnt seem like you love me so much that you want me to stay..

i know you do but, i still need you to let me know you do..

i'm sorry i'm insecure. i'm sorry i'm so whiny.. but just treat me like you use to, it'll do..

i'm sorry i'm asking for so much.. you know i love you too right? in fact i love you so much.. maybe thats where it all starts..

maybe i'm a silly girl after all.. looking for silly things...

puii- but i really really love you darr.. really do.

reply my email if you see this... kay?

aily =) i love you i love you i love you darrr =)
glad i got you, cookie.
i hate the weather now. i hope the whole world could be airconditioned.
...from evilness.
i miss dancing =( or moving around.. i feel like a dead fish everyday.
and i will love you right.
maybe i should start writing my thesis..... HA! not!
love remembering sweet moments we had, all the way till now =)
okay, this entry's pretty pointless. but i cant sleep anymore and i'm bored...
wanna love you,treat you like how you deserve to be treated.
gotta love madagascar penguins and king julian =)
not like... some f ch
puii- gotta remember whose at fault.
gotta love that fbiatch.

take the ikea pencil and...
i guess i'll never fully know what's on your mind,
i love the boyfeeeee =)
just like how you'll never know which are the things that i really mean when i say..
i love the elmo that boyfee got for me =)))
and the things that i dont mean to say..
i love every everything that the boyfee got for me =))
and the things that i dont mean at all, hoping you'll know i dont mean them..
june's party tmr!! what a weird theme sia.. jurassic park. ahahahahhahaha.. gotta bring the camera and see what weird clothes people gonna wear there..
that when i say no, its actually a yes...
i'm feeling reallyyyy rusty from not dancing since fly with me.. my body's aching like mad everyday.. my knees are twisted and achy. i just feel like i need to move again, somehow.
that i'm actually a sucker for cheesy romantic sh*t..
i need to swim, or something..
that you mean the world to me.. that i love you more than myself sometimes..
boyfee refuses to go jog or cycle with me. hahahahahah..
.....okay.. most of the time..
i need to dance la.. somehow =P haha..
that i'm really scared of not loving you enough, or right..
cookie! we need a tan! =P
that when i say i love you, i really really do.. so so much..
found two spider nests at home just now, really tiny ones.. well not quite actually.. one the size of a regular rubber, and the other.. maybe two rubbers. =P it was damn grossssss sia.. lotsa spiders and stuffs came out when i crushed that nest thing. flushed everything down the drain. hahahahaa =P
that when you always tell me you're okay when you're obviously not..
heh.. i feel like eating curry chicken chop rice.. or curry chicken noodle.. or japanese curry rice.. or shanghainese curry rice.. or indian curry rice..
....i feel hurt, like you don't need me at all..
heh.. what's with the curry craving anyway..
i want to be there for you, not only when you're happy..
puii- i love you darr =) love, you know what i mean?
i feel so so so damn damn damn sad whenever you're sad too......

That dumbdumb dunno how much he really really mean to me..
i'm actually damn hungry now.. in the middle of the night. =P

i think i will die if i really dance IF at Tari. hahahahaha..

i love ivonn and june, they are the dumbest and cutest girls around.

puii- i love you dumbdumb =))))

Dar is sooooo cute =))) He bought me ice cream soda today after the thesis show =))))

i love that cute cookie!!!

puii- elmo*cookie

i got HUGE craving for starbucks java chips tmr.

still:moving take 2. i'm afraid i'll be too tired for you.

i think i need red bull before the show.

i think womanhood is coming soon.

i'm aching all over.

i need journals to be over and done with.

puii- i dont like to do homework, i'm sorry =P

Sometimes I don’t even know if I’m asking too much.

hahaahaha i love blogging when i'm not suppose to.

i'm in the theatre right now, just bumped in today. its like, An's piece running now and i'm suppose to be either resting, dinnering or doing my performance theory. haha but my pages opened now are facebook and blogger. very clever. haha nice..

and i'm eating yeow leong's chips like he dun wan it anymore. =P

damn tired today, even though didnt dance much. but i think everyone's stressed up by many many things that happened. its kinda hard trying to keep happy =P hahaha.. but i get my stupid happy moment to myself now, its enough for now la huh =) hahahahaha..

can't wait for collab show to be over. i'm so done with decision making and instructions giving. i think thats the part i hate the most about choreographing. i like to just say yes and follow. =P

wah the theatre suddenly got aura. bad ones =P hahahaha.. scary sial..

okay official dinner break now.. i shall go start my perf theory journals. hahahaha..

anyways, sidenote. i love my dancers for the efforts they are putting in. what we ask is rather hard for them, but they are really trying very hard. i love you all beautiful people =)) dance well kay! jia you! =))

very scary sial the atmosphere.. =PPPPP

i miss miss miss dar =((

puii- elmo cookie =)

Piggy sis' birthday is on 15 April.

Puiman still owe her one more present for 15 April.

Titanic sank on 15 April.

Dar's house's lift's gonna start working again on 15 April.

Reply slip to college dues on 15 April.

Last official 'exam class' on 15 April.

Got back some result slips on 15 April.

puiman is hungry now in school, on 15 April.

she is dead tired from lack of sleep, battling gastric on 15 April.

she is going to eat now at lunch time, 15 April. =)

puii- puiman is missing silly boy on 15 April.

Random: 888th post! =P

ebird is so cute =) hahaha..

one more week till school finishes.

still gotta reply them about the L3 thing.

i desperately need a new phone. touch diamond is seriously better la.. at least can play solitaire on it =)

stupid phone refused to call out, now it refuses to send out smses. damn, i cant even ask people to come watch my grad show.

OH speaking of which, here are the infos =)

24th April (Friday) 8pm is our collaboration(choreography) showing, at the Flexible Space in LaSalle, haha first floor, pretty easy to find one la huh.

1st and 2nd May (Friday, Saturday) is the graduation show: Fly with Me. also at the Flexible Space, 8pm.

=)

i need a haircut after ballet exam. i hate my hair now =(

ebird, you can do beauty la =)

i feel like eating my chips but i feel lazy to chew on it. hahahahahaha..

puii- why no one reply my smsssssss.... =P

Stupid emo bug.

i'm freaking cold and bored and emo now... cos i got nothing to do in my own freaking rehearsal
=(

i told you from the start i don't want this already. this is so freaking stupid.

i miss the boyfriend. de-emo meeeee...

puii- red.

heh... boyfriend took me for bak kut teh and strawberry ice cream fix =))) hee.. so random, how come he'll remember. thanks dear! =)

i kena kiap by the laptop, i got a red line on my hand =(

ivonn got stupid face.

hai later rehearsal like will end v late lidat siaaa.. chong and yip say might drag till 9. hahahaaha..
week 13... week 13...

i'm like a little hungry already. stupid lunch of fish bee hoon like disappeared lidat. hahahahah..

stupid people will always do stupid things. i get the blame. dancers get the blame. thanks.
dont tell me you dont know its cos of you thats why things are like that.
library aircon; no need money one.

i miss the boyfriend.
i love the boyfriend =)
what shall we eat later?? =)

i want a haircut laaaaa... =P

puii-

i miss you boy.
i love you.
puii-

stupid flu bug. i hope you DIE. =)

i feel like eating strawberry ice cream tmr.

sian, got collab tmr, nothing to show sial.. howwwww..

dunno how to choreograph without dancers around laaaa.. haha..

performance theory. die laa.. haha final presentation really dun know what to do sia..

weekends should be three days long.

we should sleep through half of it.
..just know that..
and the stupid flu bug should stop attacking the dance faculty.

..i feel like eating bak kut teh. hahaahaha..
..whenever you feel f-ed up or upset..
flowers need escape. hahaha SECRET SONG!

i desperately need a haircut.

puii- ..i feel twice the sh*t..

heh i sewed back nuanua's neckwound.

that dumbdumb refuse to wake up again.

ebird is a bak qi =P

loaded photos on facebook.

i feel like eating nutella and carbonara.

puii- damnnnn hungry.

Happy 4 months boy! =)

hahaha cant believe i totally forgot about it!!! =P sorry la dear.. i SERIOUSLY was thinking about it like the day before! But slipped my mind =P heheheheheh.. sorry la sorry.. wont happen again ah, i put monthly alarm on that =P heheehehe~~

its a pain to not bring my phone out nowadays. feel so uncontactable, like if i'm gonna end up alone, i'm really really alone already. hahaaahaha..

thats when webSms come into play! =P i hate the auto timeout and signoff thing tho. hahaha..

i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.
i will not forget to bring my phone again.

haha 10 times of that. =P

cant wait for xiao yun's presentation later =D

cant wait for 'field trip' tmr to mjc

cant wait for the weekends

cant wait to finish collab choreo

cant wait to finish fusion dance

cant wait to finish all my journals and essays crap

cant wait for sem to end

cant wait for fly with me

cant wait for May 2

or May 21

or May 24

=P

iloveyouboy.

i need a haircut.

firm believer: stupid people will always do stupid things.

i need a haircut.

puii- pmt <3

Womanhood surprised me today. no wonder the emoness yesterday. well i shoulda known, but i thought its not time yet.. dahhh that with the stupid headache i've been having since last night

=(((((( dangggg..

haiya stupid headache refuse to go away.. i feel like cocooning now.. =P thankfully the flu went away when i came school.. if not will feel lagi worse la.. dunno why got this irritating headache la... just wish it'll go away soon =(((

stupid womanhood.. so long never cramp already today came back with cramps.. make me emo also dunno emo what.. whole back aching.. dunno why also.. hai think these two days seriously not so good la.. everything like not going well lidat.. even my own body dun like me now..

maybe i'm dying.. =P hahahahaha..

then again. there's always stupid people like ebird that make my day happier.. hahahahahahahaha.. beating her up is like the new love =P hehehehe!!! haiya her stupid emo blog.. hahahha..

week 10 already.. .. .. ...

i miss basketball =P wanna watch him play ff8 and say its cool that squall kena tortured. hahahahah that sadist =P dunno he will wake up in time for class not.. hahaha that dumb dumb =P

iloveyouboy <3

puii- in pain.

why??? am i the one who always lose..
why??? am i always the last to know..
why??? am i such a lousy piece of shit..
why??? can't you tell me yourself..
why??? must i do things like that to find things out..
why??? have i become like that..
why??? must i look over it everytime..
why??? am i not enough for you..
why??? am i disappointed again..

don't say i havent, cos i have. pathetically
don't say i'm not, cos i am.
always always am.
ya, why can't you?
apparently yes. i must..
i dont know
i really really dont know
ya i ask you...
again.. again.. again..

you know i'd want to know..
even if its wrong i want to know..

have you no heart for me at all?

puii- hai~~ saturdays...

HALO =)

haha performance lab right now =P albert dance so niceeeee~ hehehehe..

i miss my boy =P

i dunno what to do about collab.

i got craving for icecream soda.

i'm feeling so sleepy right now.

i feel like replaying FF8 again =P

suppose to start on my FF7 tho =P hahaha..

just got new contact lens. but i lazy to wear it. hehehee..

i'm still hungry now, after lunch. dangggg..

butter chicken butter chicken~

die la my knee is cui-ing.. left then right.. maybe one day everything will just cui together and i must find something else to do.

haha maybe i should look into my making-people-laugh career path. HAHA =P

haiya i'm hungry laaaa..

sleepy sial..

okay, i shall go and work my brains and think about performance theory or dance culture. maybe i should be a LIL more productive with my time =)

minesweeper and sudoku love~

puii- i miss milo lim, doodle lim and aaron lim. hahahaha..

sometimes i just cant be of any help..
i think i'm stupid la.

i feel like cutting my hair.. now now now now now..
or something equally rash and stupid.
i dun want weekend to end laa.. danggg.. hahaha..

week 9 already. its really so dang fast laa this sem. feel like dropping dance and doing something completely different sometimes. think its an overdose. think i'll be fine tmr after albert-therapy. hahahahaha..

mutts.

been readin tons of stuffs about Va ethnic tribe and krumping. hahahaha.. dance cultureeeee.. dang i still got one and a half mins to choreo for it.

puiman is being stupid. she made that stupid awkward silence.
hk hk hk hk hk hk hk hk. i miss the roast duck and curry lamb brisket =) hopefully...

puii- sorry.

sometimes i just feel lousy about myself.. the way i dress, the way i dance, the way i look, the way i walk, the way i behave..

ah i just feel lousy today. danggggg..

puii-

Some say love; it is a river that drowns the tender reed.
Some say love; it is a razor that leaves your soul to bleed.
Some say love; it is a hunger, an endless, aching need
I say love; it is a flower, and you it's only seed.

It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance
It's the one who won't be taken, who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.


And the night has been too lonely and the road has been too long.
And you think that love is only for the lucky and the strong.
Just remember in the winter far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love, in the spring, becomes a rose.

puii- i love you, dear =)
go check your laptop bag =)

Finding.

i hate the cny flu bug =( stupid school aircon is ridiculously cold yesterday. better doc's if not my throat confirm kena together. hahahaha..

i went down to the clinic at 9 plus 10 to get a queue number. they gave me a 3.40pm slot. hahahaha.. jia lat sia..

think i gonna slp till then.. =(

Its not about finding.

puii- Its the knowing.
so what do i know?

Why must i always see something bad after something good?

I guess i can never ever get to learn to..

*
Anyways..
Happy 2 Months boy =)

puii- what on earth are you thinking?!

i promise to upload all the photos i owe soon!!!! =PPP hahahahaha..
its hard for me to learn to.....
haha havent load all the hiphop gangsta photos we took, and from C day.. and other stuffs la! hee i think people like ebird's gonna kill me for the delayyyyy.. hahah sorry la =P still love me right ebird?!!! =)) ehehehehehehehe..
its painful, even tho i know (and totally hope) it doesnt mean anything..
ahhhh having such a hard time researching on dance culture and performance theory. especially perf theory!! cos i'm suppose to do a presentation on this subject that i totally have no clue of till now!! die laaaa.. and i cant find that dang book that writes about it. dangggg... hit the internet!
sorry i took myself further than where i should.. it reminds me of things i dont want to..
dance culture also laa.. fusion dance. haha still dunno if i can manage it not. not really v familiar with both of my dance form choices. but aiya.. should be fun. hahaha..
sorry for playing minesweeper on my own, emoing this time..
then there's collab. which... ah nothing..
dun ask me about it.. i dun wan to talk or think about it anymore.. really.. really.
i cant wait for CNY to come! so i can throw away my old shoes for the new pair. hahahaha.. its serious cui-ing and i see no point in trying to fix or wash it and all. hahahahaha.. i'm getting shorter by the days cos the shoes wearing off.. HAHA! =P
sorry i was a lil emo just now tho i tried to be normal.. guess it won't ever truly be.. sorry.
okay.. here's my short break for myself.. return to research =)
see your recycle bin. sorry i just did it myself; i couldnt stand it. but i am kay, really =)
puii- ..and you will know why, so..
oh, there's something else. but thats tmr.. that can wait.. =)
just know that, i love you boy =) really really do =)

is it really..?

puii- tired.

i'm v tired right now..

cos my rabbit havent been well.

saw it struggling so bad last night just to keep its head up..
some things that you dont do just makes me read things differently.
i dont know.. but it made me missed sleep whole night..

now i'm not feeling so well.. danggg..

i miss my first rabbit alot suddenly. this cute lil thing called brownie. before she left she gave us another cute lil thing that looked exactly like her.. well, almost. hahaaha we called him brownie too =P
and i'm sorry for thinking too much on my part..
but when she died.. she looked exactly like how i saw b-boy last night. it was so sad laaa.. couldnt help it. knew i should have went to rest and all, and not miss class this morning but.. really couldnt sleep la.. keep waking up also..

danggg..

i feel so dead now i dun feel like going out. but hecks.. i should go out now. said i'll go for ballet, but slept thru it too..

doubt i'll be able to pull all my nonsense stuffs in class today.. =(

puii- you give and take away.

Here's a story of lovers finding
Union so deep there is no unwinding
Tender threats exquistly finding
Two lives together so deep resounding

Love so strong whatever the weather
Even apart our souls are together
Its you and me babe forever and ever
Even apart we're dreaming together

One..

Suddenly all time and space
Loses its meaning when I see your face
And I'm wrapped up in heaven's grace
Feeling so safe in your sweet embrace

One..

puii- a-ily

one of my rabbit's not doing so good.. it can't stand up and hop around like it used to. its refusing to drink water for few days now. mum say it might not be long before......

i love you B-boy. get well soon k?

making me miss all my rabbits last time so so much. i miss my first rabbit. i still love her the most.

*

First week of school's over. 14 more weeks to go. Bet when its over it'll feel like a blink of the eyes but right now it feels like forever..

I havent been able to get up for 830 classes (danggg) =P hahahaha..

Thanks boy for waking up early and sending me to school =)

Love the girls in school. =)))

CNY coming!! =)) Went to chinatown yesterday. hahahahahaha not crazy amount of people yet but still quite happening ah. =P Cant wait for CNY =))

Dad's leaving for China on second day of CNY i think. to spend CNY with his siblings back in GZ.

There's homework but i dun feel like doing it.

I miss hanging out with Mabel and HY. Just cos they are irritating..

okay.. i should go pack my room a lil =P mum's been nagging. hahahahahaha..

puii- cte.

i'm sorry its always my fault...
why do i always end up making you emo?
it must be something that i'm doing wrong..

and dang.. i just cant figure..
emobug..
aiya.. it must be all my fault..

puii- ...go away.

stupid emo bug. it must be the preschool depression thing.. yeaa i know school's officially started and all today but.. thats the whole point right.. first day of school and you're thinking.. dangggg 4 more months to goooooooo...

1st and 2nd May Fly with Me.. the Grad show.

school's okayyyyy la.. missed the crowd tho. had albert early morning.. having the aches from it now =P danggg i can totally feel it tmr laaaa =P hahahahaha..

i miss holidays alreadyyyy =P hahaha..

the timetable comes full on tmr!! better try and sleep away the soreness.. already have homework ahhhhhhh... sad. =P

k la.. i shall go off and emo. =PPP

puii- there are some things i just won't say.

School's starting in two days timeeee!! =(( mega bummer. hahahaah whats with all that overeating and no-dancing-at-all la.. dun even know how i'm gonna survive first day =P hahahahaha.. jia lat laa.. i can feel the "first week soreness" already. HEE!

take forever to sit down and stand up
avoid every single staircase, as much as possible

wah... totally feel it. =P hahahaha..

i miss the girls in school. havent got to meet them at all during hols =P hahaha.. okay except Ivonn. went Myth to disturb her the other day. hahahaha.. =P

danggggg holiday's over like so soon!! to make it worse, i feel sick for the past few days, before and after new year's day.. so like.. cant even end the holiday on a nice note.. SIAN ah.. all the pills i must eat all day =((

haha despite being sick i still managed to catch the countdown and fireworks at esplanade with basketball =P was so beautiful la =) too bad didnt have the camera with me cos sinman took it with her on her trip. but.. haha serious think this is the first and last time la.. almost died there. hahahaha crazy amount of people la.. so hard to breathe man.. plus all the smoke and "fragrance".. hahahahaha.. jia lat man.

but i still enjoyed myself la =))

been home for few days now. bed ridden ah. sian.. feeling so weak, cant even walk properly to the clinic la. hahah had high high fever.. making me stupid. hahahaha.. thanks sweet for coming down everyday =) know you're bored but you still say its okay. hahaha.. ya la chiong your missions la =PP hahahaah.. pro la someoneeee =P

finally am better today! =) hahaha but aiya.. also dunno go where. haha later see how la. cant wait! =)))

SCHOOL FEES! better get from daddy =P hahahahaha..

puii- =)

hahaha i've been such a lazy blogger. been out la, so lazy to blog. hahahahaha..


the official "getting fat" period has started since that time when oschool recital's finished. its been such a bang! =)) miss the times of rehearsal and showtime la =))) love the peeps loads, both street jazz and lyrical jazz!! =))) mega loves to ryan and fredy! =)) serious had such a fun fun time dancing to their choreo with all the new friends =) dope la! =))

koped many many photos =) woohoo!


suddenly miss dancing alot. hahahaha cos i havent been dancing AT ALL since oschool recital. serious not at all la. so gonna die when school starts.. to make things worse i've been eating ALOTTTT the whole holiday.. and i've grown so much fatter.. seriously fat la.. can see kind. hahaha jia lat la.. think school start dunno how to dance already. hahahhaaha..

kinda miss the girls in school. havent seen most of them since the showcase thingy to the belgium princess in school. supa miss ivonn and june la. cant wait to have another xiao jv hui! =))meet up meet up k!!! i promise i'll be free!! =PPP

*

we've all moved on, why havent you?

*

the holiday's been happy =)) (almost) everyday's been real happy la.. cant bear for holiday to end really.. but hahahahaha even if holiday ends i think will still be the same one la so.. =))

aily. really.

*

i'm so sad!! there's no new eps of mythbusters anymoreeeee =((( at least not for now.. so sian la.. i've been rewatching all the same eps, and totally know whats gonna happen already.. so sian man serious. hopefully they have new season soon.

which reminds me.. that stupid thingy writes there "Mythbusters 6", meaning new stuffs, but are still showing eps from "Mythbusters 5"

i am angry =( they cheated me of my feelings!!

*

for one, i would want to be cool.
i wouldn't do what you'd.

*

i suddenly really miss dance. but i dun really want school to start.

hahahahaha maybe its a sign.. maybe i should do some things before school starts again.

which reminds me.. they havent even send the stupid result slip yet.. and yes timetable for next sem is out.

apparently no changes tho.. just this one thinggggg..... oh oh.. nothing. =P hahaha =PP

i miss doing nonsense jumps. like that jump off the chair in albert's piece. hahahahaha.. and nope. don't miss pirouettes at all. hahahahahah.. =P

oh yaaaa i seriously needa get new pointe shoes. hahaha.. if not school start all the pointe classes ah.. jia lat. =PP

FAT LA *emo*

puii-

if you're wondering, i did ate chicken the next day.. hahahahaha popeye chicken~ =P

sunday was rather happening. hahahahahah especially oschool recital!! had a lil accident; maybe some of you have heard la. =P hahhahaha.. it was full dress reh for recital items, so we danced and all la. did street jazz first. was trying to enjoy myself but, aiya, cant beat that worried face about steps and formation all.. must practice practice!! =P

anyways, i love fredy's choreo =)))

THEN.. went to change for lyrical jazz. hahahahah it was sooo under-rehearsed la serious, cos we havent been meeting up for two weeks already, and before the reh we didnt prac together at all. so starting already kinda cui (three words, as ryan would say) already la. =P hahahaahhaha..

THEN, at this part la, got a tiny partnering thing with yee lian, hahaha kinda knocked into each other, her tooth with my head. it was a serious hard hit la! but we continued dancing.. cos normally this kind, just tahan finish the thing la.. then after quite long la, like i still can finish the whole chorus, into the bridge.. and did half of bridge before i realise i must run la! ahahaha cos like i didnt know my head was bleeding profusely, and i only realise when we were jumping to formation to do bridge, when something dripped on my eyelashes la. was SO SHOCKED when i saw its blood, but i dunno why i still thought i can continue and tahan until finish one la. so danced still lo. but while jumping to another formation, thinking cannot take it already la cos look quite scary from the mirror, and quite pain ah, so jump jump jump and ran out the room la.

hahahaha was so drama, cos i have like half the face red one, running running to the bathroom. think i scared alot alot alot of people la, cos they thought it was a very very big wound, from the amount of blood they saw. haha but just cos the blood was flowing v fast la..

hmmm high blood pressure.. =PPP

reminder: this wound was from the knock onto yeelian's tooth.

yea so went to wash up and try to stop the blood all. everyone came over to the toilet area and ryan fredy AnAn all helped me put med and all la. everyone was so ganjiong =PP opps i think serious quite drama.

THEN yee lian came over! she was so worried la, keep asking if i was okay. then you know what happened to her???? she broke her front tooth in half la!! from the impact!! she still finished the dance cos she didnt really feel it; her whole mouth area is numb already. she only discovered the broken tooth under her tongue after the last pose.

I FELT SO BAD! i'm like.. my wound can heal, but the tooth is gone la!! and she still so worried about me, it being a head impact and all, keep asking if i'm okay. aiyoo i really feel so so so bad.. =(

its not a big big wound la, tho it was quite deep. its fine now la, just feels like a very bad swollen bruise, thats all. no worrys are (if you were at all worried) =P hahahahahaha..

so we were like banned from doing anything, and had to sit and rest and stuff. they keep asking if i was feeling giddy or nauseous.. hahahaha when i said a lil giddy, ryan like, took a cookie from someone along the way and gave me la. so random.. giddy got cookie eat ah.. hahahahaha..

was serious quite happening la. as ryan said, now i got one more story to tell people la. hahahaah dunno how we can hit so hard that her tooth broke la serious. she fixed her tooth already by the way so =P hai so sorry yeelian! =P

hjhhUzjkioassiosiukiiiizuukjjkhjuuuugfiuujuk - my rabbit just wrote this. hahahah serious. my mum carried one of it over and say to it "you wanna play computer?" hahahahah so i kinda put its paws on the keyboard and all. so cute la =)) hehehehehehe~

going swim in a while =) yay the sun's gone down a bit. hahaaahaha if not sure jia lat la =PP hahahahah..

puii- slept till 2 today =PPP

i love alison la. she is so cute. hahahahahahaha.. =)

went to help daddy at his store just now. so glad i went, cos the crowd was crazy.. so many people that they had to wait more than half an hour la. hahahah crazy patience. tho there's one guy that left cos he didnt wanna wait anymore, and didnt even tell us. hahahaha lucky there's an order for the same dish so we could serve it fast. if not, have to keep it till store closes and that'll prob be our dinner. =P

serious crazy busy la just now.. didnt stop at all from when i reached around 6 plus lidat all the way till 9 plus. must be the saturday eat out craze. hahahah =PP

daddy was too tired to cook dinner after that, so we packed up earlier to go eat somewhere else. hahahaha eat zi char again la, after seeing all the zi char food for so long.. hahahahah ate ridiculous amount of chicken. crazy one. the guy la, say its kampong chicken, which is traditionally rather small, so we think should be no kick la. end up it wasnt a kampong chicken, and he served us like what, a whole normal chicken?? cooked in two ways la, but still....

i dun wanna eat chicken tmr =P hahahahhahaah...

Recital full dress rehearsal tmr! =) a part of me cant wait, and another cant imagine myself wearing costume for ryan's piece. =PPPPP gonna be soooooooo fat la omggg O_O

anyways. i think it'll be fine. love ryan and fredy's pieces la =)) mummy and daddy's going watch! hahahaha i think its gonna be the first time my dad see me dance la. hahahaha so just nice the perf falls on monday =))) yayyy~!

i just scared they bored la =PP hopefully sin man goes, and keep them company =PP hahaha..

okay okay.. gotta go rest earl(ier) =) byebyebye~



puii- still..

i wish........

*

've been slacking at home these two days, thinking about collab next year and some other stuffS. =P been sleeping and eating alot. danggggg i dun wanna wear that costume for ryan's piece in recital. NOOOOOOooooo~~~ =PPP

i'm gonna look dangg fat. jia lat..

good thing is, there's nothing left at home to eat, unless i cook or prepare. so if i feel lazy, i wont overeat (i hope) hahahahahahaha.. but aiya.. when i sit around with nothing to do.. mouth will feel itchy la. =PP

i needa find something to do soonnnnn.. =P

actually.. i dunno why i blog anymore, cos there's basically nothing to write about. hai~ i'm such a no-lifer la.. no school, no dance = nothing to do. HAHAHA! =P so sad! i've been watching tons of mythbusters tho. but.. hai ya i've watched it all before already so.. siannnnn..

OKAY i figured i should be good and go be someone useful. off to daddy's store then =PP heh heh heh~

puii- nah it doesnt matter what i wish....

if my brains were overworked any time in this year, its probably now. hahaahahaha..

and i think its really dumb la, how i can go back to the same place i wanted to get out of, making that big step out through my choreo. dangg i'm still holding em balloons. i think i'll never figure how to burst them.

i think i really just cant talk, or say anything. maybe thats bad, but.. ahhh i dun care =P haha..

meeting mabel penguin for lunch in 10. gotta run =P hehehhehehe~~

puii- a-ily

my eyes are very dry =( must be that stupid contact lens.. hahahahaha there must be something that i must do about it.. but then again, what can i do la. so.. i might just go blind soon la =P hahahaha..


no, i cant wear specs out with this hair. Big NOOOOOOOO... =PPP especially this fringe. no freakin wayyy =P hehehehehehehehe~

havent been blogging, till i forgot what i had wanted to write all together. hahahahaha..

oh oh!! baby sophie is the cutest cutest CUTEST thing ever!! =)) i havent seen a three day old baby so up close before, and man, how can we not see it as a miracle la! you know how tiny she is right now?? and yet, she is whole, and she is so beautiful, and she look soo sooo much like Serina! =))) Cutest cutest thing =)

Angel's cute too!! =)) As always!! Hahahahha its so cute how Angel's so much like Kenny, and Sophie's so much like Serina! =))

Was at the bus stop near Kenny and Serina's place, and randomly saw ALOT of saga seeds on the floor la!! i was quite surprised cos i didnt expect to see so many. hahahahha was super tempted to be unglam and go pick them up, but the rain was HORRIBLY big and the saga seeds look more like they are in a swimming pool or something so.. ahhh~ next time when i go there la =P hahahahahah..

and they are super red kind la! not those brown ones. hahahahah..

saga seeds love =) hahaha..

i got a pimple!! suddenly!! this morning!!! =(((

gotta go school later for some nonsense thingy, dunno for what la, sian =P hahaahaha.. but i'm glad anyway, cos we get to have 小聚会 =) cant wait cant wait!! =)

i'm serious getting fatter laaaa. like very very fat. i think whatever i lost during this semester is all coming back. hahahaha i better get back to some exercises and dancing la. =P

and to think of it, i havent been dancing as much as i should la. =P i didnt really think about dance either since holiday started. well, i mean, except recital trainings la.. which is so so so fun and so so so exciting! =) two more weeks and we have Oschool's second recital! =) been so much fun dancing with my lyrical and street jazz mates =)) love them la, they da best =)) hehehehehhehe~ fun bunch fun bunch, with big loves for oschool. hahahaha..

cant wait for 8th to come man seriously. =P keep 8th Dec free!!

Singapore Poly Convention Centre
8th December 2008
7.30 PM
$15, $20 (at the door)

=))))

met up with those stupid ladies the other day =PPP hahahhahah.. been forever since we last had our catch up/la teh sessions. =P and yesss i'm sooooo not looking forward to 10th dec =PPPPP hehehehehehehehe~ been forever since i went HY's house, been forever since i last saw lucky! ben forever since i just spend nonsense time with her and bel and just talk about random nothings.

hahahahahah it feels good to have 10 year old friendships =P

puii-

You killed every emo bug that might come. You de-emo me at the end of everyday.

*

Did i talk about comtemp exam yet?

Hahahahhahahahahaahaahahahhaah.. it was screwed.

I think its serious retribution la.. cos of something MEAN that i did.. i kinda injured myself JUST the night before contemp exam. i like, pulled my right hip ligament quite bad that it affected my lower back too la. too late to tell Melissa or who too, so.. sad la =P hahahahahaha actually i cant even lift up the dead weight of my legs without pain la serious, but still gotta do all those kicks and all stuffs. crazy pain la throughout the exam, i cant even think about anything la.. keep forgetting steps.. keep doing wrong.. distracting every single one around me. i think i was being such a distraction for them when i stood right in front and i never do the exercise properly la..

class, forgive me k? =P hehehehehehehe~


so, basically the whole thing was screwed la. the exam.. hahahahahaaha crazily bad performance that day. sian.

Anyways...


went class outing again! =)) we took the longest time to prepare and leave the studio la.. and it just have to rain when we were leaving. hahahaha..

pizza hut trip was cool la =) ate back whatever we lost from exams. and kinda just slack there for the longest time. hahahaaha.. had fun with the girls, took crazy amount of photos.

okay. not that crazy. hahahahahahhaha..


anyways, its officially holidays la. just left perf theory stuffs to submit that i can be free from school for one and a half =))) hehehehehehehe~ serious cant wait la!

puii- skipper toy! =)

why the sudden..

i just don't know why.. today was like a really bad day..

i dont know what i was doing half the time.

but.. i hope i knew la. hahahahahaha..

i got you a lil something..

心乱如麻 。。。

give me a chance to say.

i cant sleep.

and thats because.. imy

never mind.. imy

puii- stupid emo buggg.

I really just don't have the guts to ask.. but i hope you'll tell me..

*

COLLAB IS FINALLY OVERRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i tell you... i was SERIOUS so stressed on thursday la.. man, crazy stressed, worrying about collab, my piece, Jess' piece, An's piece.. and then perf theory, worrying about getting everything done on time, worrying about my concept..

but i'm just totally glad its over la.. like i'm so over this thing already..

but now we gotta start working on next year collab ALREADY. and i'm soooo totally not excited about it.

SOOOOO TOTALLY NOT EXCITED.

sorry. but i think its totally gonna..........

collab showing was fine la basically... for me everything's pretty okayy.. just my piece la, the stupid lighting. lidat also can screw up. dang pro man these people. hahahahaahahahahahahahahah =PP

but without them it'll be worse, so i should stop complaining =PP

I LOVE MY DANCERS LA! =))) They are the dope can =))) wouldnt have been able to do anyanything without them. Serious owe it to them. Holiday i ask yall out for a meal k! =) my treat!! serious must ah! =)) thanks for your hard work, putting up with my weird ideas of having yall do nonsense poses and laughing when you totally dun feel like it =)))

Jess! thanks for always being so willing to help me try new ideas, and also so helpful in sharing ideas and all =)) you're one sweet sweet sweet girl la =)) love you!!!!

Zuyou!! Really thanks for dancing for me ah.. know its rather hard for you, but you really try your best for it man =) thanks thanks thanks!!! =) 509!!! =))

and Ivonn! thanks for conquering your fear for balloons for me too! appreciate it man =))) and of cos.. your back.. i'm still feeling very bad about it.. please go rest up during the holidays can? raelly thanks man.. loves!

Couldnt have done it without yall!! =))

They helped me pulled through for the ending when the lighting had error. if not i dunno how my piece is going to end la. =PP hahaha.. super scary moment, but all of them helped me finish the piece even with the lights lidat la. MANY MANY THANKSSS! =))

and my music collaborator Aaron! =) wa if he fades out the music when the lights go off ah.. hahahaha i think the people will start clapping already =PP thanks for the music too man! love it la =) hahahah tho you were serious quite "pushed over" =P always had to change stuffs for the music. hahaha.. thanks man! you rock ah!

hahah okay.. so much for collab.

BALLET EXAM this morning!! was sooooo freaky can... hahahahaha it was really scary scary i tell you.. but i guess it was pretty okay la.. of cos got mistakes here and there la.. and i get nervous, so the things that i normally dun perform well, is even worse. hhahahahaha.. but its okay. i guess it was okayyyyyy =P

i just hate to tie my hair alllll up la. with a peanut size bun somemore. so UGLY ah (said in the Alison way). hahahahahahaha...

but it was serious ugly la =P

i managed to nail my double pirouettes lately =) and i'm really glad cos i havent been able to turn properly one la.. the feeling's quite shiok when the double just came =))) hahahahahah..

but i think i needa be alot alot more stable la.. like jessica. =) hahahaha..

Mutts!

Singapore is kinda sad la.. theres really nowhere to go past midnight. not even movies. haha..

attack of the emo bug.

my parents' is gonna SERIOUS nag at me =P hahahaha jia lat..

puii- i wish you'd.

I'm so relieved that i'm finally done with perf theory presentation. but i'm totally worried about collab showing tmr. cos we dont even get to try the space one more time, the dancers totally cant get used to it what.. and whats with all the technical areas.. changes.. problems..

baaaahhhh.. i'm so over this now, i just hope it finishes like nownownow. hahahahahahaha.. =P

so, as you'd have guessed. tech run today was dflskatjldrjksljfldkasr..

but whatever la.. i'm so tired to think about all these stuffs. and i'm so tired. =P i just wanted to leave that place la. hahhahahah.. gonna spend tmr there againnnn.. till evening..

sian.

wahhh i'm so full right now. =P i think on this rate i'm eating ah.. i wont be able to dance soon. hahahahahaha.. tummy go away tummy go away! =P

i dont even know why i blog these few days. cos its just a few lines of what-happened-today kinda stuffs... but aiya, who cares right? =P heheheheehehehhe..

CHOCOLATES! =) hahahahaha.. =P

puii- collab, ballet and contemp exams!

i forgot about the chocs for my mum =PP haha i'll get them tmr la. =P

acting class was soooooo nonsense today. like i had to catfight Ivonn, over Zuyou, just cos i'm acting as his girlfriend, and Ivonn's like the evil woman who snatched him away. hahahahaha.. crazy idea la.. quite dumb too. dunno why i was allocated that role. sian =P

ministry prac was cool =) finished the opening parade item already la. yay for that =)


i love how a very emo day can still end off pretty good =)) at least i'm not emo anymore. and.. yea.

de-emoing works la huh.. =P hahahahaha..

puii- one more moment,

i guess its just one of those days where you feel like the dumbest thing ever on earth, and everything that normally wont go wrong are all going. i feel so stupid now i feel like crying. hahahaha..=P

but serious. i think today was so stupid. aiya i just hate such days la.. =( and such days make me question myself. and such days make me think alot. and such days are probably there to make me realise just how dumb i really am. =P and such days make me realise what i really should be doing.

i don't know what i'm doing now. it must be womanhood's fault.

i better get chocs for my mummy later =P

puii- dang.

Lamb - One
Josh Groban - So She Dances

Stuck in my head. =P hahahahahha..

Last week last week!! i cant stop telling myself that. =P

i'm lazy to think of perf theory actually.. its like the.. ahh nevermind =PP

i'm very sleepy now, but i dont feel like sleeping. =PP

i suddenly feel like eating baguette and butter =P

puii- youyouyou make me happy.

Last week last week last week of school!!!

Its a whole week too long.. but it doesnt matter =) i'm just happy holidays' coming!! =))

thank God dun have informal showing this semester. got so much on hand.. cant possibly fit it in la. i think we are all so dang busy with everything.. hahaha one week will be like.. ehh gone? =P hahahaha..

i got my dose of silly-ness today on tv from madagascar 1! hahahahaha love the penguin squad la serious =))) cutest thingys every =P

hai~ not prof enough in dance. gotta up it.

stupid people, will always always do stupid things. we should try hard in life, to try and excel. but theres always people that try too hard, and appear stupid, dont you agree?
hai.. i'm not gonna bother..

puii - Miloooooooooo =)))))

Don't take too long to say
"I love you" to the ones you love,
Cause time has a habit of slipping away
Out on a clear blue sky,
When lighting strikes on a sunny day,
Just take me in and keep me from the rain,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you've gone away,
Just stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment,with you

Turn around to say goodbye,
With each and every word that passes by,
Like a distant memory,
And time keeps slipping away,
And time will turn to grey,
And time will be the one who holds you down,

And the words that seem so hard to say,
Come out when you've gone away,
Just stay a little while and hear me say,

That I want you here tonight,
And I need you by my side,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment,
And I want you by my side,
And I need you here tonight,
For just one more moment,
For just one more moment,
With you

Sometimes time will treat you bad,
Before you even know what's wrong,
And in the end it hits you hard,
Please tell me you'll be strong

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i suddenly misses all my older relatives.. my aunts and uncles all. and my grandparents. the grandparents i never saw before..

i suddenly miss my dad and mum too.

i'm like.. missing you you you, you and you.youyouyou..

i wanna tell all of them i love them =)

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go away, emo bug.

puii-Don't take too long to say "I love you" to the ones you love

Madagascar 2 was dope la!! =)) Typical cute cartoon. Love the penguins! =) Serious, nothing can beat them la =P hahahahaha.. they like, beat up the DreamWorks fishing boy at the start la.. hahahahah so fuunnyyyy =PP

Thanks for flying with Air Penguin~ Hahahahahhaha.. =PP

And i still dont geddit. how can the guy sitting behind actually fall asleep, and snore la! Weird people.. haha..

Anywaysss.. i'm trying to finish up all the perf theory assignments now. and it'd totally help if i could understand anything at all from that dang book. hahahahahhaaha =PP still gotta think of something for presentation next week man... =((( tho i've decided on a space i still dunno what to do yet~ and what theory to show la! =P jia lat.. hahahahaha..

but.. it'll be okay =))

Collab Showing Next Week!!

So, if you're free coming thursday afternoon time, come to LaSalle and watch our choreography exam! =P think it starts at 2.30 pm ah. show's called Grey Matters i think. hahahhaah =P my piece is like.. the last piece la. hahahahahhaa.. must gan jiong allllll the way through. dangg =P if it'd finish first or what i can let down my gan jiongness sooner. =P hahahaha..

cant wait to perform Albert's piece. so we dun have to rehearse it anymore. hahahahahaha so freaking tiring la his rehearsals. cos when people do wrong we must do all over again.. like those tiny mistake stuffs. and not like the whole thing is slack la.

crazy slimming session. hahaha =P

kinda scared about technique exams =PP one more week to chiong =P

one more week one more week!! =))))

puii- escape 2 africa~

puiman is feeling badddd.. =(

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today was like accident-prone day la!!! i got more bruises and moments of pain in one day then the entire semester.. or something like that. =P hahahaaha.. crazy alot..

for one, the worst one is on my knuckles, where i like just punched june in her hipbone with my knuckle.. and it immediately swelled up la! hahaha crazy painful la that one..

and then another.. i already had a purple bruise on my right knee from one of the rolls quite early in the rehearsal.. then there was this pull pull thing la and me and june hit each other on the knee, both at our injured parts =PP wahhhh the feeling is quite ulitmate.. i was like so tired of trying to keep myself safe from injury la. =P

but it was dang funny too =PPP hahah..

bruise count : 18. thats gotta be a record man =P haha..

oh oh rehearsal today was so gan jiong la.. like i was totally rushing for time.. and (almost) all the studios had theatre students taking class inside!! haha lucky G201 was free. anyways, i think my dancers are quite slack in my reh la.. cos i dunno how to be so chiongster like alison =PP hahaha.. they were like chatting~ and playing piano all. hahahah so cute la they =)))

loving yaling's ballet class la. shes so cute. and for once i am so sure of movements.. just that i cant execute properly, especially all the technical stuffs like turns and all. turns la.. i cant turn for nuts. =((

ala seconde turn!! O_O

i'm still quite behind in terms of work stuffs.. even tho its like week 14 already.. hahahaha still trying to chiong everything man.. aiya.. hope i had a laptop so i didnt have to wait till i get home before i can start working on stuffs =P haha..

wahhh i'm actually REALLY tired today. i feel like sleeping now but, feel like doing some work too at the same time..

haha and i feel like watching mythbusters.

and i feel like continuing my crisis core.

which reminds me.. i couldnt kill genesis boss at first go. danggg same as that angeal boss the other time =P prob will take me alot of missions to get there =P ahahahhaha..

i feel like drinking milo now =PP

puii- sorry.